Dealing with the Government

So I had to go through a disability evaluation for my MassHealth and they have determined I am not disabled enough to continue getting MassHealth. I am now without any health insurance. I have placed a request to get a call back so I can see what options are now open to me since I can't enroll in the health insurance at work right now, nor do I want to to be honest, it is the WORST insurance plan and unbelievably expensive.

 Due to this stress I have had nightmares all night, and woke up with an upset stomach. Got out of bed to find my "good" knee is swollen a bit and giving out a bit as I walk. Yeah. The day is going to be a long one if this continues. I hope to all the gods that I can afford to get insurance through the Health Connector quickly if need be since I need to get my gel injections in my knees and do my follow ups at Dana Farber for my tumor. 

 I want to cry because the stress is so much today. I don't want to go to work but I know I need to power through this and keep going, when all I really want to do is crawl back in to bed. I think a good cry before I go into work will help.

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